Thank you everyone. Ohiocowboy.... you actually helped me more than you will ever know and I am forever grateful. I don't like posting as I am a private person. In a moment of sadness and or anger, I posted that post and can't take it back. But, because of it, I met a wonderful new friend. OC, I had some stories to tell didn't I? Thanks to everyone for their kind words to me. The death of my husband has been the most horrible experience of my life. I want him back.
If anyone wants to pm me they are welcome and it may take a few days for me to reply but I promise I will. Love to you all.